Sledding in the dark!

 Tonight, your dad came inside asking where the cat was. You were already in bed, but piped up from your bed that the cat was in her scratching post and we were relieved because your dad smelled skunk really close to the house! He told me I should come and investigate with him. He got me a jacket and opened the door for me and held my hand while we walked over to the garage through the crunchy snow- he said he mostly wanted to just go on a little walk with me. He grabbed a little round sled and we squeezed on it together and went down the hill. It was honestly kind of scary- I thought your dad would hit his head on the concrete wall because we were flying backward down the hill sideways hahah. I put my foot down to stop the sled and lost a shoe! had to walk back to the house barefoot.. We came back in laughing and you asked where we had gone and we told you sledding. Your face was priceless! Sledding in the dark? Mom lost a shoe? 

I just kept thinking about your reaction and wanted to quick jot a note for you. I wanted to write down that I hope that when you think back to me and your dad and our marriage and relationship, you remember that we really enjoyed hanging out together. That you would remember us sledding in the dark and you coming out during a rest time to find us eating freshly baked cookies together (without you!). That you remember us playing games together and teasing and your dad kissing me in front of you as long as it takes to make you guys say "Eww". Your dad loves me so much. He was saying some sweet things about me to you guys today and apologized to you kids for sometimes disrespecting me (we had a bit of a fight the day before and you kids overheard a bit of our raised voices). You said it only impacted me and you didn't care and we quickly told you that you really do care because our relationship is your model for all relationships and what you will be looking for in your own husband someday. I'm not sure you quite grasped that concept yet ha. But I want you to know that I pray for your future- for your marriage, your health, and your joy (not happiness that comes and goes with circumstance, but deep joy that can't be moved because no one can take away our salvation from the Lord Jesus Christ). I pray that you will know deep joy in life and in your marriage and in your motherhood. I can only pray that the Lord would grant you a marriage as wonderful as mine. I hope that you find a man who will always fight to have fun with you and who will love you so so well. I pray that your dad and my marriage models that to you. 

Anyway, just wanted to quick throw those thoughts out there and I hope they bless you someday- I still don't know when I will give these notes to you- maybe when you turn 21? Maybe when you get married? so who knows when you will first read this! 

I love you, sweetheart. so so much.